The Believer.

In the perpetuancy of ...... (our minds), we tend to believe in, and even fear, the powers of the enemy,  yet have trouble believing in the power of God. We worry about the bad and have trouble believing the good.   It just shows our perpetuancy to believe in the negative things of this life. I know it sounds bad this way, but if the enemy and his evil are real, then SO MUST BE God. God said, He hath created all things for Himself, .....yea, even the wicked for the day of evil. There is a prince of this world, and he does have power. Yet, There is a master of the universe, and He holds the dominion. There is no greater.
So why are we prone to believe in the lesser?

We choose who we will live or die to. (God is not mocked, whatsoever a man seweth that shall he reap). God's rewards are great. But the enemy's are Immediate.  We are humans, flesh, subject to weaknesses; this is what is catered to. Yes, it takes strength to be strong; the strong will suffer trial because they will endure it.  Strength is made, it's not a given, not for most.
So why are we prone to believe what's negative? Because our hearts and emotions will allow us to; it's easier; it's affordable; it's all around us. It's easier to blame racism, than to fight harder to get that job. It's easier to believe most men are dogs than to believe you might have a good one. It just makes sense.
But, God has said He doesn't see things the way we do, He looks on the heart. He sees the good coming long before it gets there.  This is the believer; Believing in spite of.  Because of God's love, He believes in us.
There is nothing wrong in believing....if you know in whom you believe.
It does take strength to believe in something contrary to popular opinion or to stand sure in the face of them who may not believe.  From the bible-Be ye strong in the Lord,  and in the power of His might.
It takes strength to be a believer,  separate from the ways of this world, ...and it's so easy to give in to the negative doubts and fears that haunt us.
Yes, it is a choice. You have to pick your path.
MLK - "There comes a time in every man's life when he must stand up and be accounted for,  and if he is filled with fear,  he can not do it."

One of my faves~ Buy the truth and sell it not. Prov. 23:23

II Tim 1:7

Feeling shapeless,.....undefined,..... empty,....no vision for yourself?..... Just know that, in the beginning, the earth was this way- without form,  and void,  and darkness was upon the face of the deep. But then..... the Spirit of God moved! And then there was LIGHT.
Yes,  there is hope for you.